So I've Got the Test Jibblies
I usually don't have text anxiety. I have post-test anxiety. I don't get nervous when I'm actually taking the test at all, even when I haven't studied. I have a strong feeling that I'm not going to do so well, but I'm not really stressed. If anything, I get nervous after the test.
See, now it's different. I've had seriously bad luck when it comes to my Geology course. The first two of the four exams we've had this year I missed completely (and wouldn't you know it, they're the very tests I would've aced). The first was missed due to either being completely bedridden and the second was missed because the bus just plain decided not to come. (Unless it ended up coming an hour late).
So now my final's worht, like 60% of my grade.
So, lately I've been studying for the majority of this week and I think I mostly know this stuff. Keyword: think.
I've thought I've known stuff solid before and then bombed tests. I think a better phrasing would be that I know the concepts. And with my prof there tends to be things that just pop up out of nowhere.
I think I might be okay, but thinking that just makes me think in turn that I'm just trying overcompensate and/or ignore the issue. Just to be sure, though, I wanted to read threough all of my notes and my book to make sure I'm on top of everything, despite the fact that I'm pretty sure it's cramming and cramming never did nothin' for no one.
So this morning I've been trying to look over my stuff and study and... I can't study.
When I try I just get freaked out and distracted by how much this test is worth and the fact that I still have to registser for classes (by the by, I've got...wierd issues in doing any official college stuff. It SERIOUSLY wigs me out. Don't know why).
So I can't concentrate due to anxiety. Which just adds more anxiety because I know if I don't study than I fail and if I fail then it screws up my transcript, which is screwey enough, thank you. And a nasty transcript screws up my transfering to UTSA and means I'll have to spend MORE time at my community college and I'm too old to still be here and I don't have a job and have no idea how the world works and I'm going to give in a decrepid house on the west side for the rest of my days eating Spam. And I hate Spam in all it's forms that aren't Monty Python related.
It's probabaly gonna steal my sleep like it's been doing for the past three days. Because hey, lack of sleep is just what I need right now before a tests when I'm trying to get over a cold.
This is really my first time with pre-test jibblies. I don't suppose anyone has some advice?
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