We are the freaks of society.

[JustJack]

Ever since a bunch of freakish geeky goth kids decided to shoot up their home town schools a few years back, it's people like us who are feared in society. We who like to wear black, we who appear geeky. We of whom everyone classifies as "freak" "goth" "nerd" "geek". I don't live by such titles. But, I guess I do enjoy wearing black(but, not always). I do appear geeky, which is just a given. I do enjoy my computer, & comic book collections. I don't concider myself Goth at all(I find most of them to be a bunch a whiney losers), I'm no freak(What is a freak, now adays? Most of them dress like Punks... :rolleyes: ), and while I may have the qualities, I'm certainly no geek or nerd. No...really, I'm not!
We are the feared of society. Honestly, there is this big dumb jock at my school who once told me "If I wasn't so sure you'd show up to school one day, & blow the heck outta the place, I'd freak you up!"(Of course, the language was cleaned up for this little thing I'm doing). Honestly, I may appear this way, I may be the quiet creepy guy in the back of the room, my friends & I may seem different, may act different...but I'd never hurt a fly. And I would NEVER concider blowing up my school...things like that are just stupid. And yet, for some reason, people fear people like us. I never said a threatening word to anyone, I have never raised my fist in anger...and yet, I am the feared.

This never bothered me, I mean...c'mon! When you're feared at school, people stay out of your way. I honestly dont care for people, & try to not keep in direct contact with them(outside of my friends, anyway...). So, I live my daily life, no one messes with me, I mess with no one. It seems like an o.k deal. Sure, I hate being feared for no reason..but, as long as people stay out of my way.

But today..for some reason, I don't know exactly what..my girlfriend tells me "you scare me". WHY? What did I do? Maybe it's because I like to stay out late & party with a weird crowd of people after her curfew. Maybe it is because I decided to wear black today(I just cleaned my dark cloths! I've been wearing whites for 3 weeks!). Maybe it's because she said something that upset me, so I decided to reply "I'm not talking about that", & I ended it right there. So, now she's afraid of me, she's trying to stay away from me. Why? I'd never hurt a fly. Because I spoke sternly with her? Geeze....you think you finally meet someone who understands you...then they mysteriously fear you for no reason?

Anyone else know what I'm talking about? I've talked to several other TZers around here, who know how it feels to be "feared without cause". :rolleyes:

[batboy2001]

Eh, for me personaly it's mostly people thinking I am "out there". IE, someone asked me how was my day, what did I do, I told them I picked up some manga and wood elves. :D Even if I explain such things to them they are like "ok, sure". I guess, if people don't really know me (in RL) I can come off as quiete, keeping to myself and snyd.

[Gyro]

I've never had that problem. I think the trick is to smile more. One guy at my school is always quiet and never smiles. It kinda scares us, because when someone tries to talk to him he doesn't answer, he just stare straight ahead. I managed to get two words off him once, and they weren't pretty.

Try smiling, it could work. People always seem friendlier when they smile. :)

[Zechs]

Just goes to show that people can really suck sometimes.

[The Guard]

I've never been "goth" or a "jock" or whatever. In high school, I always had friends from each group. I could go to a party and fit right in, no matter what group it was. It was kinda weird.

The fear thing. Unless it helps at the present time, it sucks when people are scared of you. Had a problem with a girl at work a year ago. Lost pretty much all my friends and coworkers, and it's basically ruined the way I feel about people. I can't talk to people, girls especially, without being suspicious. It's sad. So yeah, I know what it's like. It hurts more than anything.

Am I a freak? Maybe. I wear black once in a while. I don't talk much. I don't smile a lot. But I don't smoke, or drink. I don't party. I don't use people. I care more about other people than I do myself. That makes me different than about 99 percent of the world. Does being different make me a freak? If it does, fine. I'll be a freak. I'd rather be that then what I see every day. The shiny people aren't perfect. No one is. I'm happy with who I am, and I wouldn't trade with anyone for the world.

[ButteredToast]

I was always the quiet, bookish type.. I always kept to myself. When I was in high school (about 12 years ago, mind you...) bullies almost seemed to be able to SMELL this type of personality and flock to you in droves.

If the jocks are scared of you, then kudos to you! They're nothing more than an annoying distraction to your education, anyway...

As for all you "freaks" out there. Raise that freak flag high! Be proud you're not a part of the brainless mainstream.

[langden alger]

well..i've catered to people my whole life...i've tried to become what i thought was acceptable...got the hairstyles everyone had, wore the clothes everyone was wearing, got into all the music everyone else was into, talk about what they liked talking about....i tried to talk to people, be friendly, laugh, joke around...still i just would only hear "who's the weird quiet guy?".....i've tried my whole life to fit into the world around me...it only seemed to push me futher into my own world. i have tried everything i could to get attention and it only caused me to be ignored and shoved to the corner even further.....i've really tried with every fiber of my being to be apart of this outside world i live in..it's the only thing i've shown the most ambition, the most energy with..all the while i should have focused all of that energy on more important things...you learn all too late sometimes what really matters..it takes a really long time to finally accept who you are, what your really going to end up with in the end..and most time it hurts..it hurts very badly. that's how life is...the truth is that if people have decided what you are, and who you are- no matter what you do your not going to change they're mind. not ever...so why waste time? in the end it's all only between you and yourself ..so set out to please you. please your own world. and if your lucky enough to find a girl or other people who appreciate the world you live in, then go with it by all means..it's more than i ever had.

[The Guard]

Yup.

[Zechs]

I had some friends but was still made fun of.

[RogueMartian]

I'm too quite and reclusive for anyone to even notice me, let alone be afraid of me. I have my couple of friends here and there and that's all I want. The rest of society is none of my concern.

[Sumi_Masen]

Freaks? My brother is a freak.... he wears the makeup, Marilyn Manson shirts, spiked dog collar, bracelets, and all the other stuff that makes him a "freak." Last year, he almost got suspended because a girl lied and said he threatened to kill her. That was a total lie, and it took awhile before everything got cleared up. The school didn't even apologize for it. This year, two girls threatned to kill this one guy. they didn't get suspended, or so much a ISS. It seems, just because he dresses like he does, he is automatically a bad person.

[The Guard]

Why hasn't there been a movie about us? Seriously. A teen movie, except not a sex-romp. A little darker. Ooh...ideas forming...

[Zechs]

If it's not about sex they dont think teens will watch maybe? :confused:

[langden alger]

well, you do have the quiet little projects like ghost world on film..as far as tv, there was one of the most authentic, quality shows documenting us called freaks and geeks..but since that was cancelled in a matter of months, i don't think we'll be seeing anything more that the usual bumbling caricatures in the near future...

[The Guard]

Freaks and geeks. Those weren't freaks...

Besides, it could have sex. Just...dark sex.

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

[langden alger]

for being scripted, i think freaks and geeks did a great job of portraying real, everyday people..my hats off to paul fieg and judd apatow's writing. that's the main reason the show tanked..not anywhere near fluff and glittery..maybe the show didn't accuratley depict every single type of outcast, but there was alot about it that was refreshingly authentic....but we're kind of geting off the topic of this thread anyhow...my apoligies justjack. :D

[The Guard]

Sigh...

My brother tried out for cheerleading today. Why? ATTENTION.

WHY IS HE THE COOL ONE?

[JustJack]

I know someone said this up at the top of this post...but...

I Smile Plenty! :mad: :D

Heh. Really, right now I feel completely like the regected of society, & I've told my gf she can either live with it, or go. She decided to 'live with it', but I promise you, things will not be the same. I'm going to try to scare her, now. This means I need to clean all of my darks(I usually only do one load a week...and I probably have darks sitting on the bottom of my cloths-basket, that have been in there for a year, now...).

Honestly, I want a movie about US. People hate frickin' preppies & jocks, & "lets go to parties, get drunk, & have sex!". I'm sick of that. There's a little movie called SLC Punk. It best relates to anything real..but, not quite(Punks whine to much, for my taste. & they don't even realize that they are everything they hate...thats just funny...). Freaks & Geeks focused on the geeks, it was set in the 80's, & the freaks wern't at all freakish.

Honestly, I want to see one of us hosting a real MTV show someday. For a few years now, I've had a fantasy that someday, I could be a MTV VJ...I hate rap & pop. Carson Daily, & everyone else is a rappin' preppy poser, & they all suck. I'm a real person...but, thats just my opinion on the matter...

[RogueMartian]

Originally posted by The Guard
WHY IS HE THE COOL ONE?

That's easy. To be part of the crowd or "cool" then you have to get yourself noticed, you have to THRIVE on the attention of the masses. More importantly, you have to get the attention of the masses, and a guy trying out for cheerleading will definitely do that. I knew of a couple of guys who tried out for cheerleading in High School for expressly that purpose.

[Momijii]

Geez,well when I was in school I was never a freak,freak...I was more of an outsider being that I got to hung out with the popular and the unpopular kids. But now that I'm out of school in the real world freaks aren't always Goth type people. Freaks is everyone's different definition. I find freaks to be the ones that think they know it all. Or 40 year olds still living with their mama.

[Spooky05]

i don't know if i'm a freak, but i know i'm not exactly normal. my group of friends is more than a bit strange. we'll walk up to people and just start talking to them or about them to one another. we scare a majority of the student body because of that. and we are very proud. we are also involved in [shudder] extracirricular activities, i.e. band, dance. we make up for that by being really odd the rest of the time. and i don't know if i'm goth, but this is what an old friend's bf said to me::

me: let me write on your book...
jamie: hell no. you're gonna write something goth..
me: i'm goth? and i'm wearing color today..how odd.

and on smiling, i do smile. and that scares people as well, because i have 'vampire' teeth. no, not from hot topic. they are just pointy teeth. my friend angela tried to rip them out of my head once, but i ran fast. :D